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At the end of the day this is my life. I am not going to live my life by making decisions to please or impress other people. The decisions I make are the ones I choose to make, be it the right ones or the wrong ones, that is MY problem. So go ahead, judge me… cal me small and weak, call me helpless, frankly I don’t care. The only one who knows my story, knows my life, knows my heart is God… Therefore he is the only one who can judge me. With him standing right by my side I can make it through anything life throws at me… I Can Do All Things Through CHRIST Who Strengthens Me

They Say That Over Time You Start To Realize That, That Person Wasn’t Even Worth Your Time And Effort. i Have A Problem Because You Were Worth Every Bit Of it. it Would Be So Much Easier To Deal With This if You Were A Jerk, Someone i Hated. But You Are Amazing, No Matter How Hard i Try… I Don’t See Myself Ever Hating You…

problematic teen

That moment that you realize its never going to be the same… He is NEVER going to be apart of your life again even when he promise he ALWAYS would be.

Today, a month.

“The Worst Thing You Ever Did To Me Was Making Me Stop Believing in Wishing On Eye Lashes”

Two years.. Completely thrown away. Everyday I place a painted smile on my face just to brave the day. But behind closed doors my world comes crashing down. I try my hardest to forget you… Store memories of you and memories with you in a place where I am not haunted by them on a daily bases. How do I forget someone who was once my EVERYTHING. I have lost not only the love of my life but my best friend to. God knows that my heart still belongs to him. I don’t want to be with anyone if it’s not him.

I Am Okay

When does this get easier?

It seems as though my worst fears are coming true. I feel completly invisible to him, almost forgotten. I havent seen him or spoken to him in over a week, and when i do see him he treats me like just another girl. I am so increadibly scared that he has realised that he can live without me. 

Please Don’t Love Someone Else! </3

#HeartSore

Never did I think that Ii would be this happy! I can honestly say that I have the most amazing boyfriend ever! 3 years ago we were bestfriends, a girl and a guy cant just be bestfriends. In no time i found myself falling for him…HARD. Now three years later I can honestly say he is still my bestfriend, we have been together for 20Months today and still as strong as ever. I cant imagine going a day without him! I have met the man I am going to spend my life with! 

I Love You baby <3 

not FOREVER because that’s simply not long enough

so after many days of anticipation, waiting hoping and praying, i eventually got a message from him telling him that unfortunatley he was unable to spend new years eve with me because his family were having a thing. that completely shattered my heart. i had been waiting for this moment, ive never wanted something so bad, him being with me on that night meant absolutly everything to me. but he wasnt going to make it

hours passed and i was quiet upset about the fact that i would end the year off and start a new one without him. 5 missed calls and about 7 messages later he had told me that he could infact come spend the night with me. i dont think i have ever been that happy in my life. it was an amazing night, i wouldnt have waned to have spent it with any one other than him <3

I Got My Kiss!

*HAPPY NEW YEAR*